109

I had my follow up appointment with the dr. today about my lungs.  He said give it 2 weeks then we will see if your better.  The part that scares me is my blood sugar.  The day I went into to ecc it was 109 after not eating for 7 hours.  I did have an infection but it still should not have been that high.  I don't want to end up with diabeties.  My heart hurts so much right now just thinking about it.  I don't want to lose my leg or have my kids growup without me.  This is the big wake-up call because at this point it is still preventable.  I have a retest in March now I just need to kick some ass.

Oh Pleurisy

I finally decided to get in shape and 2 days ago I came down with pleurisy.  It hurts everytime I move or breath and the worst part is that there is no good reason to get it.  My dr. cant get into see me until next week so now I have to work not being able to breath.  Oh well I guess I need to start finding ways to work on my body without working out my lungs to much.  The good news is I haven't been able to get to any fast food so I haven't been able to eat any.  I really just want to get under 240.  I will just have to keep out it.  My goal for tom. is to get a grocery list together so I can go shopping Friday.

Uncontrolled

Every night I lay in bed and think about losing weight and what I will do to accomplish that goal.  Last night I decided no more fast food.  This morning I had Sheetz cheesesticks and a chicken sandwich for breakfast.  I have no selfcontrol.  My son has food allergies and can't eat alot of foods.  I think I need to start thinking that I am allergic to convenience food so that I will stay away from it.  I also work from noon to midnight so my goal for this work weekend is not stopping for food on the way home.  I am going to stash some snacks in the car.  Hopefully this will help to keep me on track.
Weight; 142.5 pounds

A few words

December 1st is the day I picked to start getting healthy.  Why not the 1st of January...well to much pressure with everyone trying to lose.  All my life I have been hiding behind my fat.  I have a pretty tall skinny younger sister.  My teenage years were spent competing with her.  She was personable and skinny and fun.  I wasn't that heavy but I thought I was.  My mom bought her $300 prom dresses and I bought my own from the goodwill.  I have decided it is time to stop competing.  The best part she could care less.  I have my directlife moniter and tom. I will get my calorie counting book.  Goal this month is to lose 5 pounds and to have fun doing it.  I took up backpacking and my long term goal is to go out on my first hike next year with the 32 pounds I carry on my back to be gone from my backside.